Verification Acquired

There is no way around it. I require verification. I need to know that yes this is a go. I need proof that things are real. There is that requirement of feeling something more than the obvious for me to really be able to move forward. And I think I just got it. That brief moment when I realized I had butterflies I think did it. Perhaps all I needed was something to say this was a path going somewhere. I cant help but be cautious. My track record is not one to write home about. But maybe with this brief moment of assurance I will at least have the courage to delve deeper and open up. I still feel at the point where I am trying so hard to make a good impression and to hope to leave a mark so that when the door closes I am not forgotten. But eventually I have to get past the insecurity and speak up. Maybe this is what I needed to get to that point. Or maybe this is just a little baby step in the right direction. Either would be good I think. But only time will tell.