An Emotional Gong Show that Left me Fulfilled

This week was a gong show. Not in reality, mostly inside. It was like a handful of emotional drama that was so random but fulfilling. It resulted in a recommitted friendship, and just that, a friendship. We never had that before. so yay. Next it was a simple reminder of the feelings that existed all along. The ones I tried to ignore while I was gone. However, I realize that's not how it goes. Sure I moved, but that changes nothing. Oh and then you and I played. Lovely. I think we bonded dear. No, I know we did. I am stoked for our next outing. And lastly. I think you and I have connected. We started opening up. Oddly a lot. But its nice. I think we get each other. This shall be good for both of us.
So basically. Sometimes when things strain me emotionally, whether its in a positive or negative way, its good. You wanting to try being friends was a huge stress til we laid it out. Me realizing it goes both way was enlightening but emotional. But looking at the last week.. well I wouldn't change it. I am so content. I really am learning to love both myself and how things are going in my life. love.

Reason, Season or Lifetime?

Once you told me that everyone comes into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. I immediately crossed my fingers, secretly hoping you were a lifetime, although I knew you were definitely at least a reason.

Just in thinking about it I sometimes can see what people were and why.

As I tend to keep my blog ambiguous I do not feel like that should be changed, ergo this shall be general, yet inspiring to someone I hope.

I can see those people that I needed at certain stages, someone that knew what I was going through or someone to listen to me. Looking back at freshman and sophmore year there were more of you than anyone could imagine. Those were reasons.

Seasons tend to be those that I lived with for a few months or such, perhaps co-workers for a time. People I associate with but never really connect with. We all know those situations. Perhaps they are not even ideal, but regardless, I learned something. And anytime you recieve a lasting learning experience from someone you can recognize their purpose in that stage of your life.

Lifetime. Those are the best friends. The people that you keep in touch with no matter what. The ones that I see everytime I go home. The ones you think about when you least expect it. The ones that you are constantly reminded up but dont generally admit. Plus my family. And those people that create such an impact that you cant ever forget or let go of. Those are my favourite. So as I sit here with my organic chemistry beckoning I just smile. I mean I basically have the best people in for the long haul. I am just saying.

Regardless. Thank you. Thank you to those who fulfilled their reason when I needed someone more than anyone could know. And for those that in our season together helped me grow. And here is a pre-thanks, to those who are sticking around for a lifetime. As JD would say on Scrubs, I feel like I am on an emotional rollercoaster... haha I just feel like I am on a rollercoaster and its nice to know its full or people that are changing my life.

Fame is just achieving your dreams in the spotlight.

I remember my first big show. Taste of Chaos. The band members seemed so famous, not like real people. Then time passed. I moved to university and started going to shows in a completely different scene. It was different thats all. The aquired taste of small shows became the scene I most often enjoyed. Occassionally I would talk to a band member in passing or as I picked up their newest cd. Then it all changed. We talked. It evolved. A voicemail. Another call. Breakfast. The park. And for once I realized you were just another person trying to achieve your dreams. You just happened to be doing it in front of people. But you were just like me in so many ways. I forgot how much this meant until the other day.
I saw you. And as we took those moments to reconnect, aim for tradition (regardless of it falling through). I remembered that just because you were signed and basically famous it didnt change the fact that you were human. It was just like chatting with an old friend. I love that you are achieving your dreams and that I can watch that and we can catch up when your tours allow.

The point of it all is that its principal and perspective. When you stop and just look at things for what they really are it can change everything. The moment I realized you were just another chill guy I looked at you like a friend and not like someone that I could never connect with. The principal was that you remembered it all. You saw me and it was not like I had been gone and you had been touring it was like hey whats up.

So basically, congrats on achieving your dreams, you know I am proud of you and supporting you. And ultimately when that happens for me I know you will be stoked for me, just like a friend, not like a famous ordeal.

Reality Tv does not mean you can act like your life is a TV show

Today was some day. One perhaps that was too eventful in a most uneventful way. But it was eye opening.

As we spoke it hit. Hello, you thought you were the Bachelor didnt you! Your bad. Thats just a reality tv show. In the real world when you try and have super close relationships with multiple girls they a. get jealous, b. beat you, c. leave you. It is just not logical to think that you can have such relationship bonds in the real world with multiple girls. In fact I believe they have a name for it, oh yah, being a player. So reality check. You are not the Bachelor, you do not have 25 girls swooning over you, no, you just need to stop and realize that its best to just pursue something like that one at a time. I think less people are hurt too that way. just a thought.

Although it would be too simple to have that being the only tv show that I saw someone living in. Just the other night I would have sworn I was on myth busters. You just challenged everything. It was borderline ridiculous but thoroughly entertaining. Yes, yawning is contagious, over the phone. It happened to me again today. I was on the phone, he was in another country, he yawns, I yawned. Myth Busted. However, its okay to just believe once and a while. Just something to consider you know.

I can recognize these are just two little thoughts, two depictions of reality tv shows that people seem to be adopting in their lives. But maybe we all do it. Maybe we all have our own tv show that we are the star of in our heads. This almost seems natural. The unnatural occurance is when you choose to model your show after a reality tv show. Be creative. This is your life, so be the star of your own show, not a remake. love.