29 June 2009

Indefinite Change is Curious.

Welcome to the blogging of Lauren. For those that feel like they know me, you may be in for a surprise, for those that don't, well enjoy the ride. I only hope to create an open forum of expression that creates thought and discussion as I unleash some of the thought processes within.

Like a pebble being tossed into the water, it all changes with the most subtle initial gesture.

I have been realizing that change is such a peculiar thing. Indefinite change, even more so. It began with a meeting, Something simple but almost ridiculous. You know, it is the most random times that seem to change everything. And it all did change. I could not have expected less, as I look back upon the last section of weeks I realize I have grown. Upon our first real conversation I knew I was in for something incredible. That situations don't have to be romantic. I am not referring to meeting the love of your life or someone that creates lasting drama. I am writing of those instances where you meet someone that compliments your life in an everlasting way. Those times when you feel like you are changed indefinitely, for the better.

I was fortunate. My eyes were opened to another side of situations. It was not you trying to change me, or imposition of anything. It was honest to goodness freedom of thought and opinion and a connection was formed. You became that person I admired, the one that brought out the best in me. Perhaps this is like a thank you, a simple note to say "wow, thanks for being the one to surprisingly recognize my weaknesses and pains and build me up, for being there when you had no reason to". I suppose this is written selfishly as I embrace the indefinite change that has occurred since my return. I will go back a different person. I will look for things that make me grow or cause my perspective to be widened. Our perchance meeting that took an almost immediate turn to being bonded has me recognizing how curious it all is. What a joy life is and hallelujah for those people. Perhaps it's time to stop and make sure I am being that person for someone else. Just a thought.