The Beginning Begins Again

It is like starting from scratch again. And it is incredibly frustrating. It feels like each step forwards is followed by a natural disaster. Like a boulder falling on your head because of a random rock slide. I know that there is probably some grand lesson I will learn but oddly enough that never seems to solve the now or lessen any pain from said learning experience. So instead of sitting here trying to think of what to learn I am just eating skittles instead. Some things are just out of our control, and well, since I am growing my hair out I cant just cut it like I normally do when I am upset, I am left with eating skittles instead and deciding that this is the last beginning of this chapter.